trying to do the right thing

and doing the worst.

by trying to do the right thing in times of fear.
in times of me, myself being unsure about what to do.
in times, when there are so much possibilities
and so much fear, that the other one might not like them
the other one seemingly being obsessed with things she already does

a fear arised: better not tell.

but that is the worst.
the worst of all, withdrawing the thoughts into the cave of my own mind

just say it
just do it

i know by now.
i knew back then.

strange though, how fear can affect action so very much
how it can affect it so that the real action is just the bad thing to do even though it is meant to be the good one.
how can it be?
i never have to do something, cause i think it is the right thing.
there is another option, when someone is involved.

ask.

and find out.